REIL

2011-02-10T11:41:00.000-08:00

Nostradamus.

Michel de Nostredame. known as nostradamus.was, a medical professional.created "rose pill" that was said to protected the people against the plague. then, slowly. he turned away from medical to occult & wrote an almanac for 1550. He succeeded and continued writing more annually. Thus , noble people from far away started asking horoscopes and "psychic" advise from him.Began writing a book which constitute the largely undated phophecies for which he became famous for today.The quatrains, published in a book titled Les Propheties (The Prophecies).Some people thought Nostradamus was a servant of evil, a fake, or insane, while many of the elite thought his quatrains were spiritually-inspired prophecies. By 1566, Nostradamus' gout,which had plagued him painfully for many years. In late June he summoned his lawyer to draw up an extensive will bequeathing his property plus 3,444 crowns But , on the evening of July 1, he is alleged to have told his secretary Jean de Chavigny, "You will not find me alive at sunrise." The next morning he was reportedly found dead, lying on the floor next to his bed and a bench .

find out more @ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BotfkxK4aX8

2011-02-09T10:43:00.001-08:00

And now this possession
Becomes my obsession
Adrift in illusion
I'm sent into confusion

Come torment come sadness
Give me the joy of madness
This fear and this intent
Runs deep inside
This deepest possession
For my life
I want this obsession
In my life
I claim this possession
Take my life

2011-02-09T10:21:00.001-08:00

This passion inside of me . Has left me to bleed

2011-02-09T08:26:00.001-08:00

loved lyrics.

Divide and conquer while ye may
Others preach and others fall and pray
In the bunkers where we'll die
Where the executioners they lie

Bombers launch with no recall
Minutes warning of the missile fall
Take a look at your last sky
Guessing you won't have the time to cry

Out of the universe a strange love is born
Unholy union, trinity reformed

2011-02-09T06:14:00.000-08:00

heavy-hearted child.

Savoring sweets that i used to have when i was a child, and smoking back the brand of ciggarettes i used to in my teenage years didnt make myself happier . Yet, made myself feel worse. Just staring at the shelves at the sweet section , made me recall the childhood days.Others, brings back happy memories , but i couldnt recall any, and my eyes got teary.The emptiness feeling did not go away, but expanded to somewhat like a deeper void of darkness.. im really getting tired. Fatigued.

2011-02-06T08:12:00.000-08:00

A silver crescent moon flutters down into my parched heart. In this night without any moonlight, you tell me "you can walk even alone". Those words you gave to me, with kindness and warmth. Turned the tears back into a smile on my face that was hung in dispair. When I'm sad, if I close my eyes, You're by my side, you never left .. You refused to show your tears as you bid farewell . And you gave me your same kind smile. I will never forget that warmth. I smile even as the tears flow. Even if this road comes to an end. I'll unfurl my wings for you. The broad back that disappears into the fallen drops of the moon. Teach me once more why I keep walking..

The flow of time is too cruel; it always torments me

Even if I hold up my hands to pray, you are untouchable

Still, I'm leaning back to howl at the far off sky

Yet, i`ll still be here waiting.

Even that faint happiness will never return

2011-02-06T07:38:00.000-08:00

My eyes floated in glass were simply looking at you.The fragments of kindness , were missing..The repeating signals..continue to speak of love , only out of my lips.With my own legs, i stood up, stared at the skies...The world that expands inside of dreams is coming clearer, real. I know, inside of you, i have already vanished , but only my name..you`ll still remember..In an distorted loophole in time, the knife that stabbed me in the back , broke wings. i got cut off from light, yet , i still stared at the skies, waiting for signals.where are you. i have already completely vanished, but please, dont forget the things you had embraced..

2011-02-04T01:11:00.000-08:00

My eyes met yours again, we talked a little ..

My heart throbbed and I hid my feelings behind a smile
Afraid I might not be able to go back to the times ,
When I had not known you .

I remember that night when we first met , even now.

We have come to know each other little by little..

'But suddenly I find I know nothing about you.

My love grew when we couldn't meet ,
my heart ached because my voice didn't reach you

Please don't smile with such sorrowful eyes ,
as if you were about to be broken and disappear
What can I do, my dear?..

2011-02-03T02:19:00.000-08:00

wasurenai kara..

WHITE WALLS

Have you ever wondered how it feels like when one day, you just forget how to smile ? looking, at the mirror, panicking , hoping you could get back that smile again.. but all the smiles that you manage to make gets faker and faker. Then, you leaned against the cold plain-tiled walls in the latrine, weeping in despair ..and your mind, filled with different questions and answers all coming at the same time.. "what happened?"..."what am i suppose to do?" And as you fell slowly to your knees.. You mourn grievously , becoming conscious of the fact that theres no one around , and no matter how loud cries you may make , no one will come .For these white walls shalt reflect the sound of your yearnings .. Cold&afraid. you thought things wouldnt get anyhow worse, or rather , anything worse wouldnt make any difference.. suddenly, the light from all sources , the sun thru the windows. the light from the lamp, vanished within a flash.

2011-02-01T09:27:00.000-08:00

Losing a friend maybe pain enough for some to last a long time..But how about pushing away your friends , or rather , everyone u known, in order to keep yourself away from them? Methought much more harder, much more painful . Standing alone, in the corner , at the subway train.. staring blankly, at the tracks that been passed. Trying to control all emotions , feeling inside.Trying to listen to the song thats playing over the mp3, to stop yourself from weeping, yet all it makes you think bout is about your forgotten lore. The emptiness , took its whole on me.

2011-01-31T03:09:00.000-08:00

The joy from my heart at our sudden meeting, says "Maybe it'll be over before I know it..." but those forebodings scares me . And then I was gazing into your eyes,without understanding anything..They're not forever changing, so how many phantoms,Like memories and dreams, could you file away?Could you file them away if you were me .I gazed into your eyes again,without changing anything at all.If I stretch out my hand, the smile I reach is fleeting.. If I close my eyes, I want to hold your vanishing body once more in my arms,because I can't forget that time, that place where we met...

2011-01-30T11:03:00.000-08:00

i was having a smoke, and i realized , it was a cold and wet night, which reminded me of "the raven" by edgar allan poe. Reading it yet again , made myself able to relate it to my own life , even more.. "Mournful and never-ending remembrance" came from a man , living in his past . not able to live on accepting the truth, still hoping his lost love had come back. hoping that the raven would give him the answers , but only to have his hopes all shattered ..

2011-01-30T07:32:00.000-08:00

I think I've discovered the secret of life - you just hang around until you get used to it.

~Charles Schulz

Red Rain

what was it? hallucination?or was it just my mind playing games with me.

With a blank mind,

I looked out of the car ,& thru the window.

stared, at the rain drops sliding towards the opposite direction of where the car is headin.

i closed my eyes, and saw the same vision.

but this time, the rain was red.

im sorry , if i hurt you .

2011-01-28T00:26:00.001-08:00

silence , became my lullaby to bed..

2011-01-27T16:07:00.000-08:00

When , insanity becomes ones foe or, friend ? times might be harder for me now, but yet , im curious on how this or rather my life ends.. or maybe its just the beginning .. but being curious bout it, makes me fonder more bout it , causing me to think "what am i thinkin?" much more often den usual. and the usual , for yours truely. if i reckoned correctly, isnt a normal amount already,it seems thou the voices gets more and more each time you thought harder...

'curiosity kills the cat' thats what u may say, i might just tumble down , deeper into this new realm ...but im yet to see this ...

2011-01-27T00:51:00.000-08:00

the night skies felt like it hath never been darker.

with the fleeting hope of vengence compelling me ,

still , i`ll do my best to recollect myself ..

what is it that im chasing? am i chasing anything at all?

Or am i simply drowning myself in revenge still

avoiding the horrifying truth ? locked up , in the sepulchre

i created myself, in the ocean with brilliant dyes.

i hath dug it so deep, till torned and weary ..

i hath lost the only thing that made me feel truly alive.

Are my hands responsible? Are these?..

my sweet redemption , my atonement of guilt.

2011-01-26T19:37:00.001-08:00

something , maybe Malice would say or agree to :

"We enjoy the night, the darkness,

where we can do things that aren't acceptable in the light.

Night is when we slake our thirst."

for my malice .

the thirst for vengence.

or just inflicting pain

would be enjoyable enough,

thinking of it , just intrigues me

the lust, the hate.

& i thought i finally found out who i truely am now.

maybe i am right. or maybe it`s just a lie to make oneself feel better.

maybe its a lie made , forcing myself to believe in it , cause i wished i was that very one.

trust within myself, was something i lost today .

seeking for the truth, or rather ,losing an illusion.

it`s the road i had been walking.

and it will be the road i will walk alone.still

seeking with doubts, ending up getting certainties.

my journey continues.

2011-01-26T17:50:00.000-08:00

The scars you can't see are the hardest to heal. ~Astrid Alauda

just as the break of dawn is nearing. i recalled u asking me , which side of me, was truely me. The one that other`s see , such as friends that i have of now. or , the one which u have seen, the one u actually met . After spending nights of brainstorming and never ending hair pulling experience. i came to realised. that what others might be seeing , is someone.... maybe lets call her malice. always strong, consoling the ones around her. never saying anything bout herself . Malice, is somesort bottled up in hatred. Collecting every sense of hurt she had received along the years till now.& practically feels that all this pain should be inflicted back onto the people whom, hurt her before. or , just passerbys in her life.for Karma, does not exist. only us . can make those who harmed us, suffer. Even just expressing myself. i could feel the amount of anger , i have in her. Malice, is the attention seeker.always intriguing her way into another`s notice. & mayb, what people say bout the push and pulling skills that she has is true? and that malice possesses those skills? the cunning one , that sets traps? shewill leave you , when u need her the most. breaking promises?Easy task. for she , lives up to her name.

I am a part of all that I have met. ~Alfred Lord Tennyson

(i am the cause of all this agony felt by the people around me)

i realised, what you said , bout me . that i cant live without attention from pple around me is true for the part of malice.. Now. that i have realised it, the amount of hatred for i have for myself increased.tremendously. For, its too late , i have done so much damaged to everyone around me. therefore. malice should never be forgiven. Nor , cared for. Cause you see, she can only inflict pain, in all sorts of ways . just so, to give it back to the people whom had either hurt her before, or maybe the unfortunate ones . that bumped into her. She probably, never ever stop doing it , cause love is just an illusion to her , something she doesnt believe in .... something that does not exist in her dictionary . She, i cannot control.

" You can't wake a person who is pretending to be asleep. "

(maybe i cant be saved, for im still afraid to face the facts of what had happened)

meanwhile.

the other half of whats left of me.. the one u seen before. the real one . i could confirm. Dark perhaps? helpless in a way.fragile. brittle. May not believe much in love,but is just for protection.Due to the countless harm she received , that she know she cannot handle . someone afraid. afraid of getting herself in danger , that she locked herself up .. and rather being alone. she cries to herself, along the way home. crying became her lullaby to sleep. wishing she would not wake up the next day , right before she shuts her eyes .she`s the one that agrees 100percent-ly to Issey`s creation and yours truely `s favourite quote : " choose your time of death instead of letting it happen by accident. " inspired from "alone" by Edgar Allan Poe.

Yet, deep down inside , she knows inside her . she was still hoping for a saviour. she is still waiting for her salvation. The night , you said you would be her savior. she felt hope. yet , terrified, of what would happen to Malice. As all these years, she did not end her life, was also due to the presence of Malice with her hunger for revenge . what if anything backfires. what if i choose to disappear. would i be able to live on without her?

"Who is more foolish, the child afraid of the dark or the man afraid of the light?" ~Maurice Freehill

As a child, i did not receive the amount of care and concern , that what i think should be given , to make me live normally. Living in the dark. Had became my home. Maybe im just being that foolish. that im so used to myself being this way, tat im afraid of walking the path, u wanted to lit up for me.its a whole different world to me. i don`t think i am able to manage it. i know you`re disappointed , for i sound like im giving up on myself. Or maybe, i learning to accept myself being like this. . You see, Malice. i cant control.She taking over me. would just equals to you getting hurt.

Others may say , im dumb. and its not right to be revengeful. but what reasons to do they have to say such words, when in the first place they know nothing about me at all?

Malice, is keeping me alive. Yet , is hurting others around me.

i dont deserve any much concerns .

cause , i brought upon pain onto others. just like how i felt mine.

2011-01-26T15:07:00.001-08:00

I am a part of all that I have met. ~Alfred Lord Tennyson

2011-01-26T14:37:00.000-08:00

after all the serious , head banging thinkings,

still.

leaving is the solution.

yet , it isnt what i truely want to do.

a part of me , doesnt want to leave them.

yet , a part of me.

thinks that i should.

all these thinkings are making me ,

go gaga .

the situation doesnt get any better ,

now that theres two of myself , speaking.

2011-01-25T12:14:00.000-08:00

for my malice.

tears?

does it mean anything to you at all?

for someone like me,

i should be left alone.

just outcast me.

for i shall never ever be paid attention on.

for i live up to malice.

my dear malice.

leave me . or i shall .

now, at least , when u have a chance.

for all i could do , is inflict pain on you.

on everyone around me.

malice.

2011-01-24T10:00:00.000-08:00

causing friends becoming foes.

tell me, why would i deserve such concern from them

everything falling apart, every step, tearing them apart.

watching as the walls grew higher , between them.

higher.further.

i have no choice. i have to make my decision.

i have to leave.

2011-01-22T02:28:00.000-08:00

for thou whom i hurt.

for thou whom i neglected.

for thou whom feels i deserved my punishment.

im now calling on for your revenge.

and end this all now. right now.

2011-01-22T02:04:00.000-08:00

walking around.

i could feel the uneasy-ness of so many strangers around me.

all i could feel , was just emptyness , throughout my whole body.

it felt as though my soul wasnt in it .

wandering around . . i thought to myself.

i dont want to live on like this.

2011-01-20T12:32:00.002-08:00

bodybreakdown.

as i grew weaker.

the medications doesnt seem to be working on me .

it has been days, tat they had been failing on me.

hoping, these strong medication could really work.

everytime i fall to the floor.

i wished.

my eyes never did open moments later.

i just wished i lay there.forever.

2011-01-20T12:32:00.001-08:00

bodybreakdown.

2011-01-20T06:35:00.000-08:00

one wouldnt struggle,

even in the mighty waves,

why would one retaliate the order of death?

when it`s what many crave for .

2011-01-19T15:02:00.000-08:00

im living on.

i can remember every single bit of moment we were together.

very clearly in my mind..

how we met. how we started .

how we parted.

its some thing i will always remember .

yes, i will see u through the smokes and flames ,

on the front lines of war

we will conquer them all.

& i will not fall .

2011-01-19T14:34:00.000-08:00

for those, whom i hurt before.

im truely sorry.

for those , who hurt me before.

u`re never be forgiven.

for those, whom loved and cared so much for me before.

i have finally awaken. my deepest apologies, and my deepest regrets.

today will be a new beginning.

today will be the end of this old life.

2011-01-19T03:54:00.000-08:00

day by day , thinking, reminising,recalling.

is it me , or is this world getting darker.

where`s the reaper whom i have prayed for every single night,

i hear whose ones horse gallops.

getting closer and closer.

wouldn`t u take me away.

take me to another place.

2011-01-05T14:48:00.000-08:00

there had never been karma.

everything is caused by ones actions.

bad things or good things,

its all up to u to control.

theres no fate , no destiny ,

its all under our control.

we control our live.

they way we live it .

the way we want it to be .

no death . no heaven.

only here.

what for.worry ?

when u only have one chance to live.

live the life u want.

live the life u would want it to be enjoyed.

do whatever it takes ,

to make urself happy.

even if its nt wise for others.

2011-01-05T14:40:00.001-08:00

people will only believe what they see,

when they dont even know the whole story.

why dont i bother explain?

cause, im sick. tired.

of living. so if u wanna say anything.

go ahead, im not stopping . im numb

im not gnna feel anything.

im ready for the reaper.

take my soul.

now.

2010-09-14T21:22:00.000-07:00

have u ever got so disgusted with yourself.

that everytime u look at the mirror,

you dont see yourself,

you see someone , just a corpse.standing there.

wondering, why would she never get heartbroken.

why would be never be in love.

that is just when u realized , that your heart is dead.

and u no longer feel a thing.

2010-09-09T20:51:00.001-07:00

as the dark clouds dissapates away,

i could see the rays of the sun.

just like a rebirth of the world.

through endless time.

and as i gazed down upon the water underneath,

i could finally see myself through the reflection again.

2010-09-07T10:20:00.000-07:00

why do people believe in love?

2010-09-02T12:29:00.000-07:00

u try to convince me ,

about the possibilities,

but i know that all your poetry ,

just comes from insecurity.

because your actions speak no more,

when its what i have been waiting for.

cause u have taken too long,

to show me that you are mine.

2010-09-01T13:16:00.000-07:00

as the darkness draws back,

the pain, reattained.

the angels sorrows,

the heaven gates shut.

as the demons rises,

back from underneath,

all hearts inclines halt & still.

d.malice.

02 / 09 / 2010 - 04:40am

2010-08-29T10:43:00.000-07:00

breathing under darkened skies.

where angels cry .

and demons sored,up high .

as they fumed the air.

u wonder , when .

would everything cease to exist .

when , would be the triumph of warmness.

yearned , languished, famished.

gazing up upon the sky ,

longing for a savior,

one`s lingering wait for salvation.

awaits dispassionately

done by : d.malice 30 / 08 / 2010 - 02:28

2010-08-26T23:09:00.000-07:00

just blow me away , my love.

have u wondered who u truly are.

staring at the reflection.

seeing that person that u no longer know .

realizing, that reflections never lie.

what u see , truth .

27 / 08 / 2010 - 14:13

2010-08-26T10:47:00.000-07:00

have fun shopping and having girls talk with patunia,

its been sucha long time since we actually gone out tgt ,

we chitchatted for hours .

and we just cant get enuff ,

another enjoyable day .

one word , fun .

missubaby

27 / 08 / 2010 - 01:51am

2010-08-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

just got back from work ,

at the mulberry fashion show ,

in sentosa tanjong beach club.

legs and hands are so tired right now.

had a great experience ,

with the jawdropping works of other senior artists.

and the oh so very tall models.

25 / 08 / 2010 - 22:59pm

2010-08-24T08:02:00.000-07:00

see the world from a different perspective .

put ur feet in diff shoes .

see what they see .

feel what they feel.

baby,pleasecomehome...

24 / 08 / 2010 - 23:07pm

2010-08-23T22:15:00.000-07:00

24 / o8 / 2010 - 13:16pm

the sun rays coming through the window panes

woke me up today .

nothing much to do ,

nothing much to eat either.

watched series after series of NCIS 7 .

i wonder if i should go out later..

i-missyoudearly.mylove.

Even if the world ignites into flames
you'll be right here by my side.
And as it burns away,
you smile at me and say
that, "not even death could take me away from you..."

24th august

2010-08-23T10:59:00.000-07:00

if we could slow down paces ,

would everybody realize what they have done?

24/ 08 /2010 - 02:08 am

2010-08-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

been months ,

since im back here again.

stay tuned.

happy nurses day .

make up job ..at mt.alvernia

2010-08-02T08:11:00.000-07:00

30 march 2010

2010-03-29T22:39:00.001-07:00

craziness goes on (:

27 feb 2010

2010-02-26T10:06:00.000-08:00

21st nov

2009-11-21T11:58:00.000-08:00

its the 21st alr!

yeah! xmas is coming!
totally have no idea whats installed this year !
i wanna celebrate it with baby too!
gotta get my x mas clothing ! hee!
spent the day with cupcake today!
(: stay at his place, watched some tv,
had dinner and all.
den after , i went to find the girls.
talked till like 12? :p
girls talk really is non stop! :DDD
oh well, gotta stop here! gotta continue with my game!
pet society ! anyone with facebook, please join me!
wahhahaha!

2009-10-27T12:18:00.000-07:00

cosmoprof graudates! woooo!

chloe and i teresa and i

mei fen and i

happy birthday girls! hahaha!
<3 love!

fishing dayyy!

7 oct

2009-10-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

cupcake`s awayy ! & i miss him! OH SO MUCH!

its his birthday , and i cant spend it with him

fortunately, we celebrated it earlier! :D
on the 6th!

2009-09-23T10:06:00.000-07:00

21st

expo day with mycupcake! :D

subaru impreza

mazda rx-8

audio sound systems rocks

interiors of suzuki swifts

cupcake`s favourite silvia (:

13 sept

2009-09-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

got no time to blog .

birthday

2009-08-16T14:34:00.000-07:00

14th aug
SHESHA . BABY & THE GIRLS.
its all about shesha,marlboro.fries&tigerrs.

augustbaby (:

gonggong spend a whole day with me on the 4th of aug :P
decided to just celebrate on the 4th ,
cause i got school tmr in the evening.
anyway! gong and i , went romanticromantic, oldstyle.
watching the sun dissapate away .
soon after it sets , we were off,
and appear at cineleisure..
caught a show ,
gong wished me a happy birthday
when it struck twelve,
and had some birthdaybirthdayheineken :D:DD
thank you honey . you`re such a sweetie ~

d.mal

d.mal

gong&po

22 june 2008

2009-06-22T09:17:00.000-07:00

ITS BEEN SO SO DAMM LONG SINCE I WROTE SOMETHING HERE.

DECIDED TO WRITE , SINCE IM SO SO BORED NOW.

CURRENTLY , SITTING AROUND. WITH MY LAPPY AND WATCHING,

MTV MADE.

SENTOSA WAS GREAT . HAD FUN ,

SWIMMING AROUND WITH HIM.

SUNTAN-ED ABIT, BUT

THE HEAT WAS GETTING INTO ME.

OUR EYES FELT AS THOUGH

SOMEONE POKE EM HARD.

OUCH! BUT I LIKED IT.VERYMUCH.

SCHOOLS BEEN GREAT.

LEARN HELLA LOT. IN A SHORT SHORT TIME.

ITS ALOT TO REMEMBER ,

BUT IM GETTING THE HANG OF IT.

STUFFING EVERYTHING INTO MY BRAIN.

EXAMS COMING SOON.

NERVES ARE GETTING INTO ME.

I GOTTA GET MODELS.

ANYONE? VOLUNTEER?

WELL, I MISS HIM SO SO SO SO MUCH NOW.

YEEEEEKKEEEES!

BE THE CAPTAIN OF YOUR LIFE.

TRUST YOURSELF.

LISTEN.LEARN.LEAD.

HAVE FUN .& ENJOY.

2009-06-18T12:55:00.000-07:00

MY CUPCAKE .

FEW DAYS AGO ..

31mayy

2009-05-31T10:11:00.000-07:00

sentosa 21apr

2009-04-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

went to meet mylove,

went to his school wit him

he marked attendance ,

denafter we left the school

& head back to punggol again.

had dinner over at his place.

den. he and novem,

droved over to my place.

i changed up , &

tgt we head down to pasir ris.

mylove and i ,

walkd around downtown,

i had my macdonalds.

took photos tgt ,

den.drove to punggolend.

enjoythenightbreeze at the beach,

lastly. they drove me back home.

went sentosa on the twenty first.

yeah.just the twof us.

susan&sarah.

haha. had much fun spending time tgt.

talk loads of photos.

& swam at siloso.

gosh.ilovehimsomuch.

14 april

2009-04-14T09:28:00.000-07:00

.FOURTEENTH.

MYLOVE HAD FALLEN SICK.

JUST WISHED I COULD BE THERE FOR HIM NOW.

REALLY HOPE HE GETS WELL QUICK!

2009-04-12T11:51:00.000-07:00

went to meet mylove todayy,
we went to watch shinjuku incident.
it was alright for us.
ending sucks to me. haha.
but still watchable!
went shopping at plazasing.
he accompanied :D
i absolutely love him !

GIRLS/bugis.
went out with the girls ytd ,
went to outram tgt.
waited for them to have their lunch.
after that , we went over to bugis.
windowshopped abit,
den head over to hajilane.
had sheesha.
chitchat .chitchat.
den after that, we went over to cityhall
to meet mylove.
hhaa, we walked over to esplanade (:
girls gone a lil crazy,
started hitting each other . ouch *
a lil childish in a way.
but we love it. its fun sometimes.
we slacked for a lil while.
den i went to his crib (:
&watched dontmesswiththezohan &
dawn of the dead ! :D

i know its too late now,

but im taking my chances .

i wanna lay in your arms.

baby i`ll cry for you.

ONTHENINTH.
fast and furious 4 with him and novem on the 9th!
the show was great!
vindiesel is the greatest! :DD

26 march thursday

2009-03-26T10:39:00.000-07:00

went out with mummy tdy.

we wentt walk around bugis .
OG, and parco junction.
dint want to walk bugis street .
bought myself some neat stuffs.
loving it much, thanks mummy!
after all the shopping,
we had our dinner at seafoodharvest,
by jacksplace.
love the atmosphere.
dark.cosy.candles everywhr.aw,so romantic!
haha. we chatting while we dine.

yummmyy~ lobster+steak!

shhhh!duntellmummy!

wednesdayy

2009-03-25T01:25:00.000-07:00

went to meet the girls yesterday.
been suchasucha long time since we slacked tgt again.
haha. ting`s FINALLY back.
we had fun chatting NON-STOP!
haa. missed em much when ting`s awayy.
dint get to meet up at all
oh well. its a good thing tat she`s back ! :DD

mistakes.neverforgiven.

21march

2009-03-22T09:12:00.000-07:00

went to meet him and novem on the 21st !

came to my crib.

they cooked spaghetti while i rest on my sofa!

wahahahah~ this is life ! :X

feel so bad not helping out .. hah

we had a big plate of it,

and swam till evening..

got changed and all done up.

mummy sent us out to pggplaza.

they went home and got changed.

tgt, we head down to cineleisure.

den walked around orchard road.

den after , we decided to head down to mustafa.

hahaha.

we walked to littleindia-farrer park.
had much fun there ,

tried on several stuffs.

which totally looked whacko.

got chased by some indiandrunk-guy.

whom was totally rude, & had no manners at all.

really had lots of fun tgt ,
later around 4+,

his father came over , brought us away from there.

and head back to their crib .

slept around 6+

and woked up at 4+ in the evening the next dayy..

slacked around all till night,

den bro brought me home.

ohboy, i miss him so terribly much !

20 friday 2009 march

2009-03-20T08:53:00.000-07:00

I gotta thang for you so how you feel bout me?

Everytime you look you find me

I know you sayin that im joking

Boy, this is forreal and this aint no joke,

i know i`d done ya wrong in the past .

being with you,

Feels so right that this cant be wrong

I cant wait to see your face again

Im hopin we can work this thing out

Everytime that Im alone,

Im thinkin bout us and where we could be.

babyboy, its true.i gotta thang for you.

thursday 19 march

2009-03-19T09:44:00.000-07:00

THURSDAYTHURSDAYTHURSDAY

GOT HOME EARLY TODAY .

BROUGHT POOCHIES HOME FOR DINNER.

AND FINALLY HAD A LIL BIT OF FOOD FOR MYSELF.

DONT REALLY HAVE THE APPETITE THESE FEW DAYS.

BUT TATS GREAT! LOSEE WEIGHT TIME!

ANYWAYY, I WENT TO MEET TING&LIAN TODAY.

SLACKED THE WHOLE ENIRE DAY,

DEN, I WENT TO MEET HIM :d

ARH.LOVEHIM,MUCHMUCHMUCHMUCH!

thursdAY 19

2009-03-18T10:22:00.000-07:00

MARCH 19.THURSDAY. `1.27AM

WENT TO MEET TING TODAY.

SLACKED TGT WITH LIAN IN PUNGGOL.

BROUGHT GIGI ALONG WITH ME.

SHE`S SO SO CUTE TODAYY!

TING GOTTA LEAVE EARLY TODAY.

SHE HAD TO CATCH A MOVIE IN THE EVENING.

JUS RIGHT WHEN SHE LEFT , HE CAME OVER TO

MEET ME. :DDDDDDDDDDD

WE SLACKED ALONG WITH GIGI .

TILL NIGHT,

BROUGHT GIGI HOME.

DEN WENT TO COMPASS AND HAD DINNER WITH

XAV AND MUMMY.

WELL.TATS ALL FOR TODAYY.

i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

okay, I WENT TOWN WITH XAV YTD

WENT OVER TO CINELEISURE.

DECIDED TO MEET UP WIT ILENE AS WELL.

ITS BEEN LONG SINCE XAV&LENE GOT TGT

SHE CAME OVER TO CINELEISURE SHORTLY.

WE WENT FLOOR TO FLOORS.

SHOPPING AT ,VOLTA.COLLAGE.&FREDPERRY

XAV BOUGHT HIMSELF A PAIR OF NIKE ,RUNNING SHOES

WHICH TOALLY COSTS LIKE , 200 + BUCKS.

WHAT A CRAZY ARSEHOLE HE IS.

ANYWAYY, WE WENT TO CATCH A MOVIE AFTER TAT,

I WATCHED COMING SOON AGAIN FOR THE SECOND TIME

ITS TOTALLY DIFF WITHOUT HIM BY MY SIDE.

AWWWW.

WE WALKED OVER TO PARAGON,

WENT TO GUCCI.

LOOKED AROUND ABIT..

BAGS THERE ARE GORGEOUS!

THE 3 OF US , FELL IN LOVE WITH THE BELOWS.

IT DOESNT LOOK AS NICE AS THE REAL ONE IN THE SHOP

BUT IT STILL ROCKS.

PRICE = $4000+ FOR THE right

$5-6000 FOR THE left

AFTER THAT, WE HEAD DOWNSTAIRS.

TO HAVE DINNER .

DECIDED TO DINE AT SPEGEDDIES

LOVING THE PASTA THERE!

17 march

2009-03-16T10:24:00.000-07:00

went over to meet susan,
at sengkang. dint do much there..
got really really bored , so we left around 12+ -1
we couldnt decide on whr else to go,
'so we tikam-ed, and ended up going vivocity
went there, bought dragonballevolution tickets.
went to the pet shop to see some stuffs.
saw many cute clothings meant for gigi&baby
the snickers are soosooo cute lar?
mygod, couldnt stop giggly .when i picturize
them wearing em.
couldnt wait to buy the leather bag
so i could carry them around.
its gonna be fun having them around with me!
after that, we got into the theathe.
took our seats. and enjoy the movie.
well. it isnt as nice as i thought it was.
mayb its because of the computer effects.

ohwell. ratings are

couldnt really sleep well these few days.
guess im really overtired.
came to know the fact tat i never
kept to my words.
whatever i do, never complies to what i say.
i break promises. & i had always disappointed
everyone around me.

friday 13 march

2009-03-13T12:34:00.000-07:00

I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT , I MISS YOU !

` I MISS YOU SO !

11 march

2009-03-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

tuesday`wednesday
girls went over to my crib to swim ytd,
after that, i went to have dinner wit mum&xav.
at east coast.
after that. i went over to ting`s .
played rockband.

started alone, bess joined in after a few songs.
after that, i went over to his crib
stayed over..
and went home in the morning,
immediately got changed,
den head down to woodlands.
enrolled into republic poly.
which took afew hours.
with no resting,nor sleep.
i went over to tings
tried to entertained myself,and the girls.

by doing stupid stuffs while slackin

waited for him to wake,
but i guessed he`s just too tired,
so i dint managed to meet him today.
sad, but yet glad that he could get some rest.

swear,in names of god.
im the one,
who loves you the most

saturday

2009-03-07T09:04:00.000-08:00

UntillTheDayIDie`

FRIDAY
WENT TO MEET TING,KIM,&LIAN
AT PGG MRT,
HEADED DOWN TO TOWN (;
SHOPPED AROUND FAR EAST
BOUGHT A SHIRT FOR MYSELF FROM BILLBOARD.
MIAMI INK, YAW!
LOVING`IT.
HAD MOGUMOGU TGT FOR DINNER.
ANYWAYY, AFTER TAT, WE WENT TO CINELEISURE.
HANG OUT AT THE SMALL GIG THERE.

TILL BOUT ELEVEN.
TOO BAD WE WENT THERE LATE.
ITS OKIE, WE STILL HAVE THE MUSIC FEST
THIS FRIDAY,13 MARCH. AT ESPLANADE.
:DDD
DEN, AFTER . I WENT TO FIND HIM (:
WAS SUPPOSE TO GO HOME,
BUT ENDED UP TON-ING

SATURDAY,TODAY.
WOKE UP LIKE SEVEN?
DEN, HAD LIGHT DINNER...
DEN, WENT TO GIANT AND IKEA WITH
XAV, AND PARENTS.
ATE SALAD AND WINGS .
FULL LIKE MAD.
AFTER WALKING THERE.
WE DECIDED TO GO OVER TO JALANKAYU
HAVE SUPPER .
MYGOD.IMSURETOGAINWEIGHTLIKEMAD!

bitemytongue, till blood soaks my shirt.

thur wed

2009-03-05T08:39:00.000-08:00

THURSDAY

WENT TO MEET THE GIRLS TODAY.
SLACKED FROM AFTERNOON TO NIGHT
HAD NON-STOP CHATTINGS TOGETHER..
DEN , AT NIGHT,
I WENT TO BESS`S
TO ROCK OUT ON OUR ROCKBAND (;

dint really managed to see him much today.
oh well, i miss him so much!

WEDNESDAY

stayed home till evening today ~
den , susan&his sister drove over to my crib
and picked me up (:
we went to punggolend.
cos they wanted to fish ..
after awhile, we left ..
and went to pp, to buy some stuffs.
denafter, we decided

to have steamboat tgt

at punggol marina :D

2009-03-03T08:45:00.000-08:00

these few days been
guitar-hero/rockband &
spending special time with the him,
& the girls.

rockingout on rockband

drinking really kills

2009-02-25T10:22:00.000-08:00

bro-sis phototaking session (:

2009-02-25T10:04:00.000-08:00

went m`sia with my family on the monday (:
walked around. went to daddy`s new pub there.
HD (: harleydavidsons. in johor.
was smaller den the first one he opened.
but it was cool.
played darts wit bro .
den left the place after a while.
went to eat (:
and walked at the nightmarket.

daddy`s new pub

daddy`s msia car (:

TUESDAY
slacked with the girls today,
its been long (:
den after tat , had fun !
den after that ,
susan&harrison.
came over to my crib
they jammed for a few hours.
& watched mtv..

feb20

2009-02-20T08:36:00.000-08:00

friday-twenty, feb

stayed home till six plus,
went to greatworld
withmummy(:
had our favouritejacksplace
den, we shopped around.
bought myself a dress from ZARA
while mummy got herself a bag
den after, bout 10+
bess,ting,jo&frens came over ..
they swam awhile , den left at 12+
to catch the last bus !
its a shame , he couldnt come over..

2009-02-11T11:52:00.000-08:00

malison`s back to bloggin.
with not much talkin,&muchmore pics (:

2009-02-11T11:48:00.001-08:00

m.

2009-01-27T09:14:00.000-08:00

happyniuyear!

i rmbered once marilyn manson told me , suicide is painless :/

emoshit.

seriousthinking

malison.

kindof lazy to update the blog recently.
pics are up (:

2009-01-19T11:47:00.000-08:00

my new f3 2009 series(:

jan 14

2009-01-13T09:09:00.001-08:00

I NEED A BIKE NOWWWWWWWWWWW!

monday jan5

2009-01-05T09:33:00.000-08:00

monday 29 dec

2008-12-29T10:03:00.000-08:00

COUNTDOWN`S COMING!

bro and i took photos before going out today (:
took them around our house.
den i went to meet ting & b,
at bbc.
slacked around, den went to boon`s house
had movie marathon today.
watched wildchild,angus
den got home around one..
going town tmr with my girls (:
woooooooooo~

sat dec13

2008-12-12T09:58:00.000-08:00

just got back from cameronhighlands&KL
went shopping wit mummy!
had my penang laksa almost everyday!
which i missed dearly since my last trip to
penang! :D
lemongrass & penang village restaurants rocks !
went to cameron highlands!
the weather`s so so so colddd!!!
love it so much there!
went to many places,
strawberry farm
flower farm
veggie farm
catus farm
watercrest farrm! ETC :D
took many pics of flowers!
sosososo niceeeeeeeeeee!
roses there are so cheap okie!
bought like two bouquets !:D
mum & i stole strawberrys
from the farm :X
they are sourrrr!
we ate our way down the rows!

went batam with daddy&mummy!
walked walked arnd there!
SHOPPED &SHOPPPED & SHOPPEEEDDD!
:DDD
bought quite alot of stuffs.
had fun much tgt! :D

WELCOME TO BATAM!

the graffitis there! :D countless!

lobster-liked prawns! :D groosebumps!*

tues 2

2008-12-03T13:55:00.001-08:00

WEDNESDAY. third.dec

went out with mummy today!
we walked the whole bugis parco & street!
:DDDD
shopppingggggggg!
bought shoes & bag..
YES AH!

TUESDAY
went out with ting today!
went to far east! walked arnd.
bought myself a skirt (:
den after tat , we got awfully hungry!
we both almost fainted while walkin..
we walked over to scape park & have dinner tgt!
ordered stingray,squid,kangkong&tomyumsoup!
yaayyyyyyyy!!!BEST AH!
haha. :DDDD
got so happy eating..

tuesday 14 oct

2008-10-14T08:36:00.000-07:00

GIRLFS LOVED

reopen

2008-10-13T08:48:00.000-07:00

BLOGG REOPEN.

TASTE OF CHAOS TOUR

i wannnaa gooo!!!!!!
hellyeah baby...
atreyu.as i lay dying. MUCC. story of the year
woots! :DDDD

thursday 14 august 2008

2008-08-14T03:14:00.000-07:00

thursday.
got home after school.
hubby`s workin
couldnt meet him today.
wanted to meet ting too,
but no ans -___-

BORINGGG! :O

tuesday.
SAKAE sushi (:
wif classmates today.
wooo. buffettt!!
:D got ourselves awfully full
den got back home .
immediately fell asleep,
till the next morning..
feel so so great after that! :D

MONDAY . aug 11

2008-08-11T03:20:00.000-07:00

MONDAY
went to meet ting dear.
slacked tgt awhile.
den got over to hubbys.
den we decided to catch a movie
at dhoby.
watched "journey to the center of the earth"
:DD

wasnt bad larh.
it was alright though.
i find it kindof short though...

you make me speechless,
when u talk to me.
you make me breathless,
when u look at me.
cant help but to surrender my everything to u.
iloveyou.

10 august 2008

2008-08-10T06:21:00.000-07:00

dint do much today,
went over to white sands
wif family today.
had dinner , jalan abit,
den head on home (:

wednesday 6th aug 2008

2008-08-06T09:49:00.000-07:00

school was alright.
till eng lesson..
fell into a super deep sleep..
woke up by everyone.
couldnt move.
felt cramps & numbness on my legs & arms
yikees.
got to meet ting today.
we slacked arnd till 8+
den went up to her house.
got a surprise from them!
had bbQ at the roofgarden.
which i dint even know.
thanks everybody !
(:

TUESDAY. FIFTH AUG
happy birthday to me!
finally. one step closer to 18 !
got home & changed up ,
& off i was! to find HUBBY !
:DDD
we went on to vivocity,
we walked around ..
den , b, bought me my present (:
thank you baby!
ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU!
after that, we rushed off to
catch the dark knight !
:D awsome show!

enjoy alot, spending time wif my b
especially on my birthday ! :D
thankyou b! for being by my side today!

MWAH! x3

ILOVEHIM.ILOVEHIM.ILOVEHIM.ILOVEHIM!

wednesday

sweet seventeen

me& my bitch (:

earlier in the evening (:

ting

a gift from ting !

TUESDAY

` i`ll never let u slip away, so hold me a lil tighter.
` & never let go .

` forever & ever ..

4 aug 2008 monday

2008-08-04T06:46:00.000-07:00

im not gonna expect a pass
in my chem test i had today.
i slept without waking early
in the morning..
guess i was just too too tired!
school passed smoothly.
except for the part whr
madam wanted to re-arrange
the tables.
why!!!
we got so used to it alrd.
it had been like tat . 4 half a year..
ohwell...
den , head to find hubby.
wanted to meet ting at first.
but in the end. i couldnt make it .
sorry dear!
head home round 7+ 8
nth much done today..
toodles~
:DDDD

benson,esther dear & me!

me at hubbys (:

03 sunday aug 2008

2008-08-03T07:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTH BABY ! :d
loooovvvvveeeeeeeesssss!!!!

went to catch moneynotenuff2.
wif hubby and his frens
:D was totally booked out.
& all we could was to catch the
midnight ones(fullhouse too)
cinema was jammed pack of peeps.
anywayy.
qianbugouyong2,
wasnt bad at all.
i dun understand why pple say it isnt nice.
its even better than themummy to me!

after the show.
we took night rider back.
head to hubby`s house(:
showered while b prepared supper for me!
thanks b! love you so much! :D
quickly ate den went to rest.

hubby`s incredible hand! ((((:

today,
i got home bout 5 in the evening.
& i was alredy missing him alrd!

had dinner wif family somewhr in buangkok.
it rocked the house .
wooo!!
:DDD

30 aug 2008

2008-07-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

went over to hubbys :D
drew each others names on
our hands!
hahahaa..
mydear have such good artistic talent!:D
lovehimtothecore!!

on me (:

on him (:

tuesday 29 jul 2008

2008-07-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

school was alright today.
stayed back for geography remedials.
den, got home early.
dint meet hubby today.

aww. IMISSHIM ! :(
` IMISSHIM !
` IMISSHIM ! :(

went to yishun for dinner wif parents,
the stingray there is awsome!
haa, lovin it man.
:DDDD

nth much today...
off to bathe!

sat

2008-07-27T00:39:00.000-07:00

went to find ting ,
at around 12+
den, head down to compass
for lunch ..
:D variety value meal!
got so darn full..
we just could hardly walk!
anywayy, after that,
we went to find lian.
den tgt slacked at pgg awhile.
got home around 8+.
started missing hubby too much,
so i went home & got changed up and
went to fareast to meet him (:
walked around abit wif him in town..(ilovehim)
den got home ..
home was so so crowded wif pple,
bro`s birthday filled the air wif liquor .
mummy&daddy went to get back our jeep
today, yay. been sucha long time since i ride
on it.. excited , yes i am .

few days back,
chem practical!

english class..
when he`s on my mind (:

iMissHimEveryday!
:DDD

24jul.2008 thursday

2008-07-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

went for Art camp,
was fun though.
chitchating wif girlfs
& doing art preps at the same time.
:DD
aftr the camp,
i went to find hubby ,
slept at his house the whole entire day/night?
ha, den continued my sleep at home later in the night.
b, sacrificed his bed for me.thanks dear! <3
haa, :D
felt so tired, tat time.
sunk into his bed & fell into a deep sleep.
shiok ! :p

july 21.2008 tuesday

2008-07-22T09:25:00.000-07:00

went home immediately
after school..
changed up & went to meet hubby
den went town tgt wif his frens.
watched hancock :D
wasnt bad.
nice though (:
touching,and funny in certain parts
got home at 11+ 12
TIREDD!
gt school till five tmr ..
AIIYAAARR...

` lovehimtothecore! ;D
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

monday july 21 2008

2008-07-21T05:21:00.000-07:00

feeling a lil tired now,
dint sleep well last night..
kept tossing myself arnd all night long..
got to school,
gonna flunk geog test.
dint study for it,
& fell into deep sleep halfway.
after school,
i went to find hubby
did maths when he was fast asleep !
AW.i loooovveeeeee hhiiiimmmm!

:DDDDD

to hubby:
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou!

the day at sentosa

the tiny me

us

her craziness!

18 july 2008

2008-07-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY

tot i could go out today.
but ended up rotting at home.
fortunately, mummy was home.
we went to marina sq & suntec
for a lil shopping.
phew!~
ate at swensens ,
everywhr else is crowded,
and queues are so so longggg...
:DDDD
but totally enjoyed it.

EAT THIS !

LOVE!

17 july 2008

2008-07-18T01:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY mrOng !
:DDD

yeah. e 5N3 spirit! :D